Ho Hum...

Well I'm back in AZ and... well... It just feels different. I'm still not healthy and I'm sure that plays a big part in it, because I can't keep up with the company and I just don't feel like I'm one of the guys anymore.
But also a lot of people are leaving. Gunny, who has been my bestfriend and mentor will be leaving the end of June. That will probably be the hardest for me and I really hate thinking about it. I'm going to miss him, Svett and the kids so much.

My heart is really torn between two places right now. I love the Army, I thought this is what God wanted me to do. But now with my health and being sick, I cannot deploy, cannot do PT ... sheesh... I'm stuck in a freaking office all day! This isn't why I joined. Am I really suppose to be in the Army? There are other ways to serve my Country though, but I really wish I knew why at 20 years young I'm being pushed through this trial. As of right now I'm not reenlisting and will return to DC (as much as I hate that city) at the end of my contract to work with a contracting agent.

I'm kind of missing WRAMC...not the hospital it's self, but the wonderful and amazing friends I had made there. For sure life long friendships and I look forward to seeing some of them again, a lot of them live on the west coast and will be medically retired from the Army so a visit will be in the works.

My progress medically is still where it was 6 months ago. I still keep loosing weight, then gaining it back, then loosing it, up and down up and down. Tuesday the doctor put me on ANOTHER medication...I'm really getting sick of trying different things, but maybe something one day will work.

I am glad to be back in the AZ sun and heat and back with a few old friends, but it will be short lived.